I have taken the weekend off of work to spend every minute possible with Mike.
He is growing weaker and weaker every day.
We had a meeting with his Hospice team this week, and then yesterday we had to call them in on an emergency visit. He was having some breathing problems, as well as major nausea. His nurse gave him a dose of Compazine for the nausea, and he had a bad reaction to the drug! He turned beet red from head to toe and was burning up.They gave him an extra dose of Morphine as well as something else, and he did alot better after just a few minutes.
His nurses told us that his lungs were full of tumor, and now they are filling with fluid. They told us not to be surprised if he didn't make it through the weekend!Chuck and I took a few minutes to go to C.R. tonight and explain the situation to everyone there. We left church and went back to Patti's house. He was sitting up watching a show about blue whales! Gosh, he never ceases to amaze me!
We keep saying that we don't see all of the changes that Hospice does. They explained it as raising your own baby. You never see the gradual changes, but people that see you occasionally sure do! When they point out the changes to us...then we see them.
Michael is in what Hospice calls "end of life" stage. He is rapidly declining, and his tumors are growing like wildfire! His nurse told me that in all of the years she's been with Hospice, she has never seen a patient with as many tumors(or as big)as Mike has that is still cognisant.We aren't sure what is holding him here, but I DO know that God is not through with him yet!Our whole family is at the point that we pray only for comfort for him. It seems wrong, but I actually pray that God takes him home before it gets any worse! I hope that doesn't sound ugly, but I can't stand to see him this way!
Please continue to lift Mike and our family in prayer!
We are broken!!
I can't dance anymore,